When I got off the plane in Sacramento, apparently I was let out at the "new" terminal at the airport. I felt lost... almost as if I wasn't really in Sacramento at all. It was a bizarre feeling.
My first night at training was awkward and lonely. The Cadets that are also training here are required to Good morning, Good afternoon, Good evening ma'am you. It's pretty crazy and gets old and awkward quick. The first night I was walking around with my head in my phone and I was "Good evening ma'am'd" and it scared the bajeezus out of me! The Cadet felt terrible, but really it wasn't even his fault. I was so uncomfortable in my room all by myself I had to adjust the blinds just so there was a little light coming into the room. Apparently I need a nightlight. Haha... I am perfectly safe here, but it's just uncomfortable to be somewhere you're not familiar with. I am sure it doesn't help that I am reading a ghost story either.
Day one of training was brutal. A lot of policy stuff that doesn't really pertain to the job, but I s'pose you need to know. I am on day two of training now and it's much more interesting. A lot more info pertaining to the job, which is good and fun. I am learning a lot... not just about the job, but about myself too - even if it is random stuff I am learning.
Another thing I learned is that I am brutal and often times cruel in my judgement of others. Granted, I may judge people out the gate, but I always give them a chance to prove me wrong. Sometimes my judgements are spot on and others they are off. I recently judged someone that, come to find out, I was pretty off. When I miss the mark like that, I realize how wrong I am to judge anyone and I should really learn to not be so judgmental. Perhaps if I was less judgmental, I would not feel so insecure about myself at times.
I got to see the Doran's last night. It was a short visit, but they were kind enough to let me borrow their truck for the next three weeks so I have a sense of freedom and don't feel so trapped here.
I have lots of prospective plans for the next weeks, but nothing really confirmed. It will be interesting to see who comes through and who doesn't. Tonight I am laying low and having some me time. I will probably hang out with my roomie a little later but will be running out to grab dinner first. The food here is not the best. BUT the endless free fountain soda is pretty freaking rad! LOL
I miss my wife like crazy. I wish she could just be here with me! I hate not being able to talk to her throughout the day and share parts of our days. Instead we have to send each other texts and wait hours for a response. Granted, we can chit chat in the evenings, but it's just not the same. I would prefer I stuffed her my luggage and then stuffed her in my locker when I got here so we could hang out after class. I just keep thinking I still have 2.5 weeks to go! I can't wait till we at least get to the halfway mark and feel like we're on the home stretch of these long three weeks!
In other news, I am bummed an annoyed that the S'mores Brownies and the Not So Skinny Poolside Dip posted on the same day. It was supposed to post one this week and the other one next week so there was a post every week, the goal being to avoid a lull in posts while I was in training. But if I keep up this "Three Week Journal" they will fill the gap.
I feel pretty out of touch because the cell signals around campus are hit or miss and we don't have much access to TV and internet, but with that being said, I will just say I have it MUCH easier than the Cadets do. I have compassion for those folks... I don't know how they do it! I think I have a new found respect for Officers because of what they have to go through.
On that note, I need to go get some more endless free fountain soda and head out to grab a bite to eat. I will be back soon.